My posts often greatly divert from my original theme: tenderness which is found in unusual places.
I was, however, thinking again today about how my seizures are in fact an example of that; kindness demonstrated in the most abstract way! I don't often write about my epilepsy, but i do often think how completely amazing it is that God still pours out such goodness in the midst of my fits - so much so that the fit is almost nullified and made irrelevant. It is overwhelmingly astonishing sometimes. Even if i physically still fit, i think God still always conquers; by reigning in tenderness and grace and kindness and mercy instead. It is a mystery to me - I do nothing to merit it, that really is the truth. I just convulse and shout and lay there unable to help myself - i am simply weak and a big disruption, but still God always helps me. There is a verse in the bible which says about how the way to overcome evil is with good. Although i haven't been healed, i feel like i have been shown such goodness from God, through other people, that He has still overcome. I know there will be a day when i am fully healed, even if that's not until i die, but until then i know God has His plans and His ways of still always reigning. It is incredible. He is a complete genius.