Thursday, February 07, 2008
What has gone wrong?
I've just spent ages trying to upload a picture and it's taken so long that i've grown impatient and have decided to just write a post instead. I have nothing to say though. That's the problem. There was a time when i could have written several posts a day, alongside pages in my own journal. But these days i'm stuck for worthwhile things to write. And that bothers me greatly. Not because i want to write something for the sake of my blog, but because i consider there to be a link between what comes out of you and what is in you. If there is nothing flowing out of me, then it makes me wonder what is going on within me. Am i dead and stale and feeding on yesterday's thoughts? Where have my eyes gone - eyes that search for life and see beauty around me that i can then recall? I post pictures on here instead of things that really matter. What has gone wrong?
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Nothing has gone wrong. We all have empty spells or times when we can't think of anything to write or post. Just because not a lot isn't coming out doesn't mean you don't have a lot of substance in you! I know you do! Give it time...
Well maybe it's better when you don't have loads of thoughts and words buzzing around your head because there is more space for silence and peace, remember the pharisees who babble on with many words. Far better to be like a little white lamb who may not have much to say all the time
'Above all things and in all things rest always in the Lord, oh my soul, for He is the everlasting rest of the Saints'
(prayer of Thomas A'Kempis)
And if you feel empty, think of this prayer of Amy Carmichael: "As empty shell in depth of sea, so would I sink, be filled with Thee"
It's so hard when the only thing you feel full of is emptiness. It's so draining. But matey, know that it's not reality. You're so the opposite of empty. You're so full of compassion, strength, love, wisdom and most importantly, the Lord Jesus Christ... amongst many other things that I can't think of right now and that I don't even see.
I hate that you're so far away, I'd love to have some Becky time and get a big hug while I'm at it. I miss you tonnes.
I don't really know what else to say. I hope and pray that God will fill you to overflowing with peace and revelation of His word and I also pray that I get to see you very soon.
Love you heaps, Deb xxx
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